Wonder 5- Rather
Updated: Aug 6, 2019
Would you rather? It's a game we've played as children; it's a game I, as an indecisive person, have always hated. But currently in my life I have found myself in a place of rathers. And to my surprise, the answers to these once insurmountable questions have come easily and with a new clarity. Jack London gave his answer in his passage "I would rather be ashes than dust," and I believe I have begun to find my own answers:
I would rather live than have never lived.
I would rather fail than say I never went for it.
I would rather be a flawed me than a perfect someone else.
I would rather wear my heart on my sleeve than bury it.
I would rather die an icarus than be afraid to ever fly.
I would rather do what scares me than settle for mediocre.
I would rather be the one who did than the one who didn't.
"I would rather die of passion than boredom."*
And I will not fall victim to a life of boredom.
I will have passion, I will have life even if that means regret. Even if that means fear. Even if that means that I walk a lonely path.
At the end of my life I want to say that I was alive in every way that a person can possibly be alive... rather than say that I was too afraid. I'm not going to apologize- no, not even to myself- for chasing life instead of hiding from it. I will find a peace of my own not in the calm waves of submittal but in the splendor of a life filled with beauty, passion, and all the rathers that may come my way.
I would rather love,
I would rather live,
than not at all.
*Vincent Van Gogh